Poignant at 4:21.
We’re not going to do this. I can’t share, I can’t catch up with you, I can’t talk. Because if I did, if I told you that my heart hurts so much sometimes that I want to rip it from my chest with my own little hands, I would fall apart. And I don’t have time to fall apart. And not that I’m not happy to see you — I am. But I wish that you would go home so the choice to talk and fall apart would go away,
(via lipglossandhearts)Just when we think we’ve figured things out, the universe throws us a curve ball. So we have to improvise, we find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way, sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.
Meredith Grey from Grey’s Anatomy (via joshpreister)Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in ‘cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.
Be Thankful.
Grey’s Anatomy (via goodstuffdaily)You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
Dr. Meredith Grey (via ubernews)You don’t get to call me whore. When I met you I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys and all the bars and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I’m all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke and you don’t get to call me a whore.
Meredith Grey
(via youknowyouloveme-xoxoxo)
I am throwing an emergency Meiday fundraiser gig on October 7 BSIDE because my health condition had gone bad to alarming and I need to undergo a surgery. Because I still want that sort of Meiday party spirit— I am pushing the venue not to charge door entrance this time, but we’ll be passing the hat for any amount of donations you might want to give an ailing girl with a big heart LOL. I’m also asking everyone to buy a Miss Meiday shirt by Rob Cham as another way to help out. I am asking this because I am on my own in this operation as I have no parents to pay for the whole thing blah-blah drama and I still really want to party and not become a vegetable. So please, come and show your love and support on Friday, October 7.
Mei Bastes is one of my favorite people. Let me get personal and tell you why:
The first time I met her, I essentially crashed her party. Meiday was already a free gig, but at the time, it was still pretty much a private free gig for her friends. It was still at Big Sky. I was, like, ~super~ conyo (I kind of still am, frankly), and folks who didn’t know me would probably be generally inclined to dislike me. Or feeling ko na feeling nila poseur lang ako na nakiki-eksena. (Yeah, I totally spelled it like that.) Or at least those were my issues when I was younger; that was how I saw myself.
I’ve always been shy (ngayon nalang ako bumakla ng bongga, and even that serves as a defense mechanism sometimes), and because I’m a Cancerian, I’ve always sought some form of approval or acceptance. I was always conscious around people, always watching myself around Jason’s friends and Jason’s crowd because, even though I was always a music fan, I wasn’t sure that I fit in. (Daming “always” no? But seriously, I’ve lived a lifetime of not fitting in. You should read all my angsty journal entries from my Poveda years. Ibang level!)
But I have always, always fit in with Mei Bastes. She’s the first person to make sure you’re having a good time (after Jason, of course, who has a tendency to hover; I think he freaks out when I don’t appear entertained, haha), the first person to make sure you have a beer in hand or are well on your way to getting merrily inebriated, and the first person to make sure you feel welcome.
As the years went by (MEGANON?!), she eventually turned Meiday into a legit public party. Strangers were welcome to listen to their favorite bands, partake of truly cheap alcohol, and have a great time in a crowd full of people who loved the same music, who all wanted to have good, clean fun and basically have a great time. She threw parties for people who didn’t party in the traditional sense. I always say there’s no party like a Mei Bastes party. There really isn’t. Kabog niya lahat, hers are the best.
I wondered how she managed to pull it off financially, because she’s thrown 36 Meidays without asking for door charge. If there’s one thing I know about production, I know it’s not cheap. I couldn’t work it out (I’m bad with numbers), I gave up, and I figured she just did it from the heart—the same way she does everything else.
If my memory weren’t absolutely crap and I had to come up with a list of the 10 best gigs I’ve ever been to, a good number of those would be Meidays. I’ve met some of the best people I know through Mei Bastes. I’ve had some of the best times of my life so far through Mei Bastes. And Mei Bastes is just a fan-fucking-tastic person, and generous to a fault.
When I found out about what was going on with her, hindi ko talaga ma-grasp. I don’t understand why bad shit happens to good people. But that doesn’t change the fact that bad shit happens. It sucks, but that’s just how it is.
Man, I don’t even know where I’m going with this. I just wanted to tell you all how fucking awesome Mei Bastes is. Because she’s fucking awesome.
The bottom line is that Mei Bastes has given me a lot. A LOT. And I know the same goes for a lot of you out there. And I think that it’s about damn time we gave back. So please, please go to the October 7 gig, and let’s do what we can to raise funds for Mei’s operation.
